I’m going to get real. Like, omg scary real.
Ready? *cripes I can’t believe I’m saying this out loud* Hopped on the scale this morning and it read 182. Naked.
Yeah. And? It’s been like that for a little while now.
WiskeyTangoFoxtrot? Well, I can tell you. Lack of exercise. I mean, there’s other reasons and such involved, but that’s pretty much the bottom line. The pounds have slowly been creeping on over the years, and two pregnancies didn’t help. But the being pregnant is not an excuse. Life happens. We get busy. I was busy. Raising my son and twin girls has kept me very distracted from myself. I tried the gym thing. Put my son in the drop-in daycare and he freaked. About the time he got used to it…. well let’s just say I found the staff was not very attentive to the children and I freaked. Never again put my child in any sort of daycare. We move. More time goes by. More life. More busyness. Then, in March of last year, when the scale read 193, I finally had reached my limit. I was depressed, moody, and FAT! And I hated myself. Not just for the way I looked but for letting myself look this way. Is there anything wrong with a larger or small body size? No. There’s definitely not. But there is something wrong when you can’t look at yourself in the mirror and love what you see. I couldn’t. So, I did an extreme diet, HCG, and lost 30lbs in 3 months. It was AMAZING! It was hard, and major sacrifice, but I loved the results. So, how’d I pack back on 20 more pounds? Simple. I didn’t maintain and exercise daily. Some people seem to not have to. You know, it’s like they eat salad for 3 days and magically shed 5lbs and all is right in their world again. No, that’s not me. It’s not in my genes. In order to get to and maintain a healthy side I HAVE TO EXERCISE!
I. Have. To. Exercise.
Period.
And I really don’t love exercise. I wish I did. I’m so envious of the people who make running and fitness look so easy and enjoyable. I’m trying to be that way. This morning I walked my son to school, and on the way home did some intervals of power walking and running. Total distance was 1.79 miles. As I’m writing this now, I still have a headache. The profuse sweating just now stopped. I finally feel like I can breath comfortably. How am I supposed to look forward to running when I feel so miserable afterward? I don’t know, but for some reason, I also don’t quite get, I feel the need to keep trying. It’s a struggle for me. Daily. However, I don’t like what I look like. I don’t like all this extra fat on my body. I don’t like how I feel when I’m trying to run around and play with my children. I f-ing HATE shopping for clothes, and I certainly don’t like how I look in them.
I. Am. Not. Happy.
Well, we all know that if you’re not happy YOU have the power to change it. I do. And it’s time to power up.
But… I suck. I suck at actually doing it and sticking with it. I get discouraged easily, because the fat and chunk never seems to leave the body as fast as I think it should. I feel like I’m putting in major effort and see no change. Again, why am I supposed to feel motivated? Anyhoo, my point is that my PLAN (because I really really want to make a solid effort at this) is to post here weekly and let you in on my progress. Next week I’ll share *gasp!!!!* my measurements. (ok… that’s a huge step for me) Weekly I’ll share my current weight, and what workouts I did and total distance walked/ran.
Join me in my weight loss/get fit journey. Are you struggling with your weight, size, or fitness level as well? Comment below and lets support each other.
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Every runner starts someplace, and this is your starting place. The important thing is that you’ve started, and it sounds like you’re determined to keep going. Congrats!
As you start running, you’ll need to stay hydrated and nourished, or else those headaches will keep haunting you. One of the things I’ve learned through my years of running is that running (even when people make it look easy) is hard work. Your body needs fuel to run. Wholesome foods (no empty calories) are important, and of course, getting enough water every day is huge.
Good luck adopting this new, healthier lifestyle, and kudos to you for raising three young kids!
I’m impressed that you shared your stats! I’m not too far from yours but am a chicken to share:) I started running in June and while I don’t love it, I’m not hating it (but I haven’t run in a month…gotta get on that!) What I really like is the high after. I run for that!
And you got this! You can do it:)
believe me, I’m not a fan of sharing. HA! And thanks
It’s a process, and it’s work, and it’s not fun, but happy I’m doing it.
Laura, you are doing great!! It’s all about baby steps and it sounds like you are doing just that. It took me a little while to “like” running, but I still don’t “love” it like some people do. I’ve gotten lazy about working out since I did a 10K back in June. But, my new thing is taking Krav Maga self-defense classes, and THAT is a great work-out! And it is very empowering! Definitely recommend that.
Thanks, Malori. Like you, I don’t really ever seeing me loving running, but I’d like to at least be better at it. I’d like to be able to go on a 3mile run and not feel like I’m going to die at the end of it.
And self defense classes are a good idea. I will probably get into something that’s away from the house once all my kiddos are in school.
I wish I could lose weight by exercise alone. I train and train and train, but unless I keep a 100% clean diet, I gain weight. I run 40km a week. I gain weight. I kickbox and weighttrain 6 hours a week AND run. I gain weight.
I have changing my diet because I love food soooo much. I totally hear you, because if I could just run off my diet I’d just keep running (and eating chocolate) all day ).
You’re going to do awesome! Everything in moderation. It’s great to have goals!
Thank you!! <3
Believe me I know exactly how you are feeling. After three kids and getting closer to 40 it just gets harder . I became a yoga instructor and I hired a nutritionist . I have tons of tips and ideas for a healthy diet plan and exercise regime. . Please for real email me. I don’t have anything to sell or have any gimmicks . Just a mom . And so blessed I’ve met the right people to inspire me to be healthier .
I’m gigglegiver on Instagram .
Thank you so much Alex! I appreciate you stopping by, and will be emailing you soon. <3
I hate exercise too! I wish I loved running because the people who do always seem so happy to do it. I kind of hate them too. just kidding.
My weight responds much more rapidly to food and calories. I am on a lowcal diet and i’m dragging my family along with me. They sometimes go for second servings but it’s been interesting watching how the small changes are affecting them too.
If you ever want a low calorie, family friendly recipe let me know! I’m sharing my recipe for healthy blueberry pancakes tomorrow on my blog: http://www.seekingsalas.blogspot.com
And I make this crustless quiche that is really good and really filling. Even if you ate the whole thing by yourself it’s still under 500 calories!
I’m so excited someone else is trying too! I hope your running inspires me!
haha I’m with you on the kind of hating the runners who make it look great. I secretly want them to trip, and then I laugh because I know I’m just being a jealous hag.
I can’t WAIT to check out your pancake recipe. Thanks for the heads up!
I had a fitness/weight epiphany earlier this year where I was so traumatized by the scale and what I looked like in pictures that I cut processed food cold turkey. I lost 16lbs in 2 months, but I have slowly gained back 10 of it in the last 6 months by not being nearly as careful. I just started running myself and am going to try to go back to all natural food, at least 75% of the time. I love that you are documenting your journey and that you are so transparent! I know you can get where you want to be!!
I’ve been looking in my pantry and what’s on my plate a lot lately. I won’t go into great detail, because that’ll be part of next weeks post, but one thing I’ve always thought was that I really don’t eat that bad. When I treat myself, I definitely do it big. But on the daily, there’s not much. We do have some processed foods in our panty, but those are just the snacks. Mostly, what we eat and what I make are from scratch. Mostly, we shop the perimeter of the store. But, with all that said, I am actually going to do some documenting on what I consume in a day, at least 3 or 4 days in a row, which I’ll be sharing in next Tuesday’s post.
Thank you so much for your comment and support.
Good luck! Ugh, I totally know how you feel. I’m in the hate exercise department as well. I know this, I know how to exercise i was Div 1 hockey player in college so I’m no stranger to working out…but damn the motivation…or lack thereof.
I love your idea of posting your measurements each week. Nothing like a little accountability to keep you going, right?
I should really join in on this too…so *takes a deep breath* I will join you too. My goal is to get back into some semblance of my hockey shape self. To that end I must drop 10lbs (of fat), and raising my fitness level substantially.
I don’t know that I’ll post the measurements EACH week, but for sure next week. Weight, miles, time, workouts will be posted weekly, though. I think this accountability will really help to keep me honest and keep moving forward. I hope.
I hope you do join me!!
Thanks for the comment and your support
You can totally do this, girl! I’m so proud of you for writing about it – it will make it that much harder to quit when you have others ‘watching’. Let me know if you need ANY thing – even if it’s just a text to check in an keep you motivated
SO SO proud of you!!!
<3 thank you!! I may take you up on that texting offer. I probably need to take every ounce of accountability and motivational help I can get! ;)
Thank you so much for your comment and support. And you're right, I think it will be harder to quit now that I have people 'watching'. I've had this post written in my mind for a while now, and put it off because I knew once it was 'out there' there was no turning back.